dehydrated green flakes
crowning the gray dust rabbits
in the forest of
times passed.
the trees seem so sad.
weeping willows sweeping my memories
of branches falling around
domelike
everytime I swing on them they seem new
until I remember
everytime
that its all just the exoskeleton
shed off by the creatures in my life
snake skin
but with patterns so familiar to me
and like always I stop a while
spend sometime with my old skins
and can never part with them
tuck them back away
until the next time I find them
unprepapered
surprised
sad.
but I would never go back.
30 November 2008
28 November 2008
santa in action
1138 and the crowds are already
crowding the entrances
exchanging glances
sizing up the competition
and a rush to the door
throngs of people staring
doe eyed at the metal grates
10 more minutes
panting for a taste of
what they cant afford any other day
as if they were rich for
one night.
and like any other sewer creature
forced to creep out at 1am
kids passed out in carts
while they grab for the doorbusters
i saw santa in action last night
and wished I had never been so spoiled.
crowding the entrances
exchanging glances
sizing up the competition
and a rush to the door
throngs of people staring
doe eyed at the metal grates
10 more minutes
panting for a taste of
what they cant afford any other day
as if they were rich for
one night.
and like any other sewer creature
forced to creep out at 1am
kids passed out in carts
while they grab for the doorbusters
i saw santa in action last night
and wished I had never been so spoiled.
26 November 2008
softened butter, one egg, and half a pounding
93 chocolate chip cookies and
burnt aluminum
in the oven
on the counters
counters set to 9 minutes
and 34 seconds
give or take a fraction
to achieve that perfection
like the time i wanted to be
perfect
but always fell
short
burnt aluminum
in the oven
on the counters
counters set to 9 minutes
and 34 seconds
give or take a fraction
to achieve that perfection
like the time i wanted to be
perfect
but always fell
short
24 November 2008
you cant actually see if you are deaf. or can you?
i heard the most vibrant colors
on the pages of your notebook
so i stole it
watching the music
recording every note of color
every image of harmony
it was all in your entries
of that journal in your room
open the door to the basement
the smell of cold overwhelming
winter in new jersey
feels like summer in alaska
i wouldnt go back though
to those hallways with the blue lockers
and the car with the grey interior
rumbling through the mountain passes
id rather listen to your pages
wondering where they came from
the images
the sounds
the smell of cold air
on the pages of your notebook
so i stole it
watching the music
recording every note of color
every image of harmony
it was all in your entries
of that journal in your room
open the door to the basement
the smell of cold overwhelming
winter in new jersey
feels like summer in alaska
i wouldnt go back though
to those hallways with the blue lockers
and the car with the grey interior
rumbling through the mountain passes
id rather listen to your pages
wondering where they came from
the images
the sounds
the smell of cold air
23 November 2008
oh the weather outside is frightful
to see in digital red
0 degrees
on the banks screen
juxtaposed with the endless
little swirls of breath
clouds in my atmosphere
its always raining here
in my solar system
even though the time says noon
in that digital red
it feels like 7 in the winter
dusk and gray painting the sky
logically it would be highly
undesirable
but when the colors match
it feels like home
even though nothing is familiar
my room a diffrent color
the bluegray sky matches
my gray blue heart
0 degrees
on the banks screen
juxtaposed with the endless
little swirls of breath
clouds in my atmosphere
its always raining here
in my solar system
even though the time says noon
in that digital red
it feels like 7 in the winter
dusk and gray painting the sky
logically it would be highly
undesirable
but when the colors match
it feels like home
even though nothing is familiar
my room a diffrent color
the bluegray sky matches
my gray blue heart
16 November 2008
strangulation
theres a pinch in the left side
deep in my chest
but i have to ignore it
breathing isnt as easy
as it was when i had
use of my organs
inside out
crumbling down
im in doubt
i think my heart gave out.
deep in my chest
but i have to ignore it
breathing isnt as easy
as it was when i had
use of my organs
inside out
crumbling down
im in doubt
i think my heart gave out.
13 November 2008
blue windows
natural blinking action
followed by unnatural
purple tears
square shaped instead of round
the blue windows between us
stop me from seeing
what could be
beyond
a weird kind of feeling
when i know it won't happen
a shortage in the fuse
between me and you
green heat in the room
my side has all the electricity
and despite my charge
there is a blue window between us
a white syringe to penetrate
extract the blue envy
extract the green sadness
extract the red tension
im left in the blackness
rubbing my feet on the carpet
wriggling toes
trying to feel the shock again.
followed by unnatural
purple tears
square shaped instead of round
the blue windows between us
stop me from seeing
what could be
beyond
a weird kind of feeling
when i know it won't happen
a shortage in the fuse
between me and you
green heat in the room
my side has all the electricity
and despite my charge
there is a blue window between us
a white syringe to penetrate
extract the blue envy
extract the green sadness
extract the red tension
im left in the blackness
rubbing my feet on the carpet
wriggling toes
trying to feel the shock again.
12 November 2008
Sideways breathing
its a peculiar thing, but i find diagonals to be soothing
none of the tension and dynamism
its a restful hypotonouse between the
lifeless horizontal and the
endlessness of verticality
twist to the left to take a deep
inhalation
almost 20% nitrogen
the neglected but refreshing proportions
less elemental and more atomic
like the time I realized it wasn't ever about lines
biomorphic forms
its always been about the Artist
attempt again at a full gasp and this time
almost 80% oxygen
Its time to start breathing in whats important
none of the tension and dynamism
its a restful hypotonouse between the
lifeless horizontal and the
endlessness of verticality
twist to the left to take a deep
inhalation
almost 20% nitrogen
the neglected but refreshing proportions
less elemental and more atomic
like the time I realized it wasn't ever about lines
biomorphic forms
its always been about the Artist
attempt again at a full gasp and this time
almost 80% oxygen
Its time to start breathing in whats important
11 November 2008
slight references
the difference between abstracted and nonobjective
is in the suggestions and intentions and
inuendos of lines
this intersecting circle and square are either
geometric
or not even there
maybe a snow cone or maybe
a portrait of yourself after 3 long years that
amounted to nothing but a bunch of flowers and photos
the roses had thorns though
it feels good to let go
this abstraction is either you in breaking into
yourself
growing back your own fingerprints
or its a circle and a square
nonobjective or abstracted.
its not exact yet
until you name it
untitled.
is in the suggestions and intentions and
inuendos of lines
this intersecting circle and square are either
geometric
or not even there
maybe a snow cone or maybe
a portrait of yourself after 3 long years that
amounted to nothing but a bunch of flowers and photos
the roses had thorns though
it feels good to let go
this abstraction is either you in breaking into
yourself
growing back your own fingerprints
or its a circle and a square
nonobjective or abstracted.
its not exact yet
until you name it
untitled.
08 November 2008
canibalized
like my instestines are oozing from my belly button
knocking on my cells walls to break down
pinholes through the internal network
sepsis in the blood and theres no going back now
theres no going back now
like my esophogus is contracting around my tonsils
a cobra swallowing its morsals
contracting retracting beating and throbbing
no more swallowing
no more talking
like my heart is having a seizure
tangling the cardiac muscles
sending impulses to stop the blood flow
sepsis in the blood though
theres no going back now
like my nerves are falling asleep
tingling and stabbing and drowsy
stumbling graveyard of cells
theres no more feeling
i cant feel anything
knocking on my cells walls to break down
pinholes through the internal network
sepsis in the blood and theres no going back now
theres no going back now
like my esophogus is contracting around my tonsils
a cobra swallowing its morsals
contracting retracting beating and throbbing
no more swallowing
no more talking
like my heart is having a seizure
tangling the cardiac muscles
sending impulses to stop the blood flow
sepsis in the blood though
theres no going back now
like my nerves are falling asleep
tingling and stabbing and drowsy
stumbling graveyard of cells
theres no more feeling
i cant feel anything
07 November 2008
if all the street lights went out
imagine if all the street lights went out
the sun absorbed to the core
generating
heat that cant be felt
everything stone cold and dark
blind and confused and
this mess is you
heat that cant be felt
the sun absorbed to the core
generating
heat that cant be felt
everything stone cold and dark
blind and confused and
this mess is you
heat that cant be felt
06 November 2008
im not really this ridiculous
felt pretty good for 16 dollars last night
wine hangovers are unique in the headaches they produce
my viens are puslating and i want to freeze them
stop the blood from pumping toxins
stop the blood from pumping oxygen
stop the blood to stop the bleeding
im feeling less metallic
feeling more dramatic
feeling but not really feeling
beyond the pounding
i must have forgotton my iron last night
ive been demagnetized
wine hangovers are unique in the headaches they produce
my viens are puslating and i want to freeze them
stop the blood from pumping toxins
stop the blood from pumping oxygen
stop the blood to stop the bleeding
im feeling less metallic
feeling more dramatic
feeling but not really feeling
beyond the pounding
i must have forgotton my iron last night
ive been demagnetized
05 November 2008
we're onto something good here
i used to take the stairs but its been harder lately
catching up to me catching my breath catching the next step
and then suddenly im breathless
standing still at 311 am staring at the pavement where your tires were
tireless wondering if you were wondering too
tiring because never in my waking life have i been so
jolted.
deliverance.
content but weary -sad but hiding it-
working but languid -crying but painless
i dont think its pointless
i saw deliverance
but the pavement was vacant
im left winded
catching up to me catching my breath catching the next step
and then suddenly im breathless
standing still at 311 am staring at the pavement where your tires were
tireless wondering if you were wondering too
tiring because never in my waking life have i been so
jolted.
deliverance.
content but weary -sad but hiding it-
working but languid -crying but painless
i dont think its pointless
i saw deliverance
but the pavement was vacant
im left winded
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